TryingToForget

two weeks an i get to find out wha the baby is, i hope its a boy. names have changed a thousand times in my head but now im thinking about Aidenet (Aid-e-net) for a girl and Ronan for a boy, both...

okay so it was pretty shitty when i found out about the baby but hey im exited, i sorted shit out at home im looking for a job, i got this :P im only about as month but omg iv been unbeliveably...

yeah im pregnant, the dads a complete freak, my life is screwed, half my family hates me. lifes just fuckin amazing

i lost all my friends in somersworth today over something stupid, life has been going good till now. i feel like i have no energy to fight off anything anymore, iv been keeping myself going up till...

comein into summer its kind of refreshing...being out side and with everyone like last year...

tommy you stupid asshole u cant do this to me....why? why tell me then get put away....why did u do that im so confused.....

got my belly button pierced ystaday, it didnt hurt when they did it but does now cuz the ring is too small... they did it in my friends kitchen, they boiled the needle and ring so that was ok and i...

fuck i hate all of this mom screwed my screens shut so i cant open them and so much bull has happed please just let die i pray and hope to god

i have NO idea how to describe how i feel...on one hand im better than ever! happy, been more out going just so great! but at the same time i want to DIE and idk why, i wanna kill myself so...

i dont know why i want to cutt again so badly, but i do. this morning i cutt my hand a little, small enough to hide..i want this pain to go away, and its not like i dont try. i have tryed almost...

All i want to do,All i ever dream about,All i ever think about,I just cant do. To see that blood again,To see that scar,To know the feeling,To know i am here. To feel better,Even for a moment,The...

i really wonder if life is worth this struggle...i have tryed to (like my name suggests) forget everything, but i just cant. nothing i was certin about seems to be right...my freind krista tryed to...

i know its been awhile since i wrote an entry, and im sorry i havent been on. im going to try and get on more now. i just moved last week to somersworth (about 30 mins from my old place) and i start...

on sat im goin to florida to see my pepe and aunt joan. in my heart i know this is the last time i will ever see eather of them... my pepe is 77 years old, he has a heart condition and isnt in the...

in regards to my last post i cant talk to my counciler I DONT TRUST HER i cant talk about it i only feel safe here please understand that i dont like to talk about that stuff to people i dont know!...