TryingToForget

ok this morning i was great now feel really bad, mom yelled at and i wanted to cry. i wanna cutt really bad, its like this almost every day. if this keeps up idk what i'll do

according to my mom i dont dont do enough around the house, she says that i dont cook for jade, which i dont cuz i dont know how (but i make her things like mac and cheese and stuff), she says i dont...

i love u Jshorty13!   hehe just had to share, love u so much

i keep thinking that mabie if i hadn't been born my brother wouldn't be so hateful, mabie jade would have a diffrent more careing dad. mabie my mom wouldn't be that way she is. idk....i've been get...

i feel so bad again, dont ask why its just stupid. but it hurts :( in other news i almost broke down in school today, but stoped myself. i had another fight with my mom, over jade not being hungry...

JustKillMe killed her self last night, its so sad she was my freind :( i hope she finaly found peace RIP JustKillMe

ok slept wrong on my neck and now i cant turn it, thats on top of my injured ankel. AND i woke up at 6:50 am today and my bus usualy leaves at 6:55 am. i had to trow my shoes on, grab my bag and run...

i was walking down an ally today with my freind and i triped on one of the steps and sprained my ankel, now it hurts :( oh well other than that in ok today i geuss

more cutting again today im so frustrated with myself. grr y cant i stop this? this morning i was laying in bed and remebered exactly how i felt in ireland. completely hopeless and worthless. i just...

im starting 2 think it was a mistake 2 tell guidence about my depression. im so scared about if i'll have 2 tell them about what happened b4. i dont know if i can do it. mabie im just being stupid...

ok i went to guidence (cant spell i know) today and told the counciler about my depression and cutting. shes gunna get my some help, and my mom doesn't have to know. i geuss i feel a little better...

here i was starting 2 feel better then mom had to start yelling at me again now in right back where i was. i knew this wud happen, thats why i just want to end it!!!!!!!!