gimmestrength2008

hTis is going to be my night time journal. Still at sis of course, feel just a very little bit better, not much and im so afraid. So worried about everything. Havnt been on here in a LONG TIME no...

this may be ajn appropriate color for today. started my new dosege of meds, feel ok, didnt go to sleep till at leaste 2 or 3 am but still, its very hard for me to get knocked out. still afraid of...

well here i am its st patrics day i am a horrible speller. no mater what time i go to sleep, still wake up at 8 am why? so ive had 2 cups of coffee. son didnt come home last night. it was his b day...

well havnt been on here for 2 days i think dont. know i finnaly got my meds tweeked yesterday, thank god. today is the first day i didnt wake up in total dreed. i have hopes for tonight so i guess it...

well changing up the colors. do feel little better. hope it was caused by my glutiny and not the flu or anything. im still sick but its better. cant type long on here starting to ov er heat again....

well ve got nothin done again today. i feel so tired and cold. its cold and wet and little snowing here. have so much to do. going to aunts tommorow and do some laundry. need to do so many things...

I AM FEELING MUCH BETTER TONIGHT.SAW SOCIAL WORKER TODAY. LOVE HER. SO NOW I HAVE A PLAN. DONT HAVE TIME TO DO THIS TODAY. THEY FIXED EVERYGHING TODAY. GOT NEW STUFF THAT WORKS, YAY. NER FAUSET, NO...

well another one of my childhood IDOLS has passed away today. that is very sadd. will get on later maybe. RIP DAVY I WILL NEVER FORGET YA.

WELL, MY UNCLE PASSED AWAY YESTERDAY. its vey sad. so guess what, ya another funeral. im so nervoius and anxiaty about going. also pharmacy hasnt called back or my social worker. im so nervoius. plus...

well, i went out today BY MYSELF. i have trobles w/ eating or should say NOT EATING all day, i equate food w/ sleep, and i lost this weight, so now, i have to forse feed myself. i know this is very...

WERE IS SHE. IVE BEEN READAY FOR OVER AN HOUR. REALY WANT TO GET THIS OVER WITH. I HAVNT ATE, I FEEL SO SICK HOPE SHE GETS HERE SOON. HAVE TO TAKE MY XANEX NOW SO SHACKY CANT TYPE ANYMOORE......

well, thats it for me. i just ate about hour agao. sat up did my dishes, and took my sllep pills. going out w/ sis tommorow so have to get up kinda early so im going down now. ok, untill...

well, i did lay down shock shock just got up 6.30. i know im very deppressed havnt left house for 5 days and now its cold and snowy. i  am so glad i got ahold of social wrker. i realy need help. ok,...

well, its v.d means not much to me. i have b.f.  but ya know. i did get an email from my social worker, finnally. i need HELP i need so many things. im realy freaking out abut now. im soooo poor,...

well i was woke up w/ my anxiaty again. i think thats what it is. i seem to wake very early so i can worrry all day. cant think rihgt now. have to take meds. will get on later. is going ot orf course...