VALENTINES DAY BA HUMBUG.2.14.12. 12.P.M.

well, its v.d means not much to me. i have b.f.  but ya know. i did get an email from my social worker, finnally. i need HELP i need so many things. im realy freaking out abut now. im soooo poor, allmost out of cigs, not good. i have tyhe e cig, so thats something. son has NO MONEY i am so fucked its not even funny. im just waiting for the anvil to hit me in the head. its not good. very bad attitude today. im very sad and lonely. its good to have son w/me, but im alone still i could be in a room w/ lots o people and still im so alone. im traumatized by what ive been threw this yr. so far i can stand up w/ b.f. but not son so much. i have very bad thoughts abut how he was raised. i realy droped the ball w/ him. he is a mess and its most.ly my fault cause i did EVERYTHING for him and  now he of course has so many prob, i cant even say. ok, later. ok, by for now.....