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• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Day 5 BACK TO WORK

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Last Reply: yes2recovery 01/03/2019

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  Well I have never been so happy to go to work. Kept me busy and my mind occupied from all the turmoil I created because of my gambling. I still feel very anxious and feel like hyperventilating but at least the episodes were not as frequent today. I spoke to a therapist for an intake over the phone today. I was able to get an appointment with a psychologist next week. I feel I have so much bottled inside. I am always pretending everything is okay. I am always having to be strong for all my...

• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Day 4 NEW YEAR

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Last Reply: Getting_Out 01/05/2019

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  Happy New Years! Well I made into the new year GF. It wasn’t the best birthday yesterday after having my son bail me out. I still have no cell service but at least we have a roof over our head. I worked from home yesterday and when I was done I sat down to write a budget. The fact of the matter is I earn really good money but wasted so much over the last few months gambling because I was fooling myself that I was short for expenses every month. Hello dumb dumb I was only short because I was...

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  Day 3 - 1:48pm

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Posted: 12/31/2018

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  Well my son got the money for the rent and you would think that would give me some relief but it doesn’t. Actually this particular bailout is the hardest I have ever received. You see the money came from my 22 year old son on my birthday today. It will always be a significant date now for me as on my birthday my son had to bail me out of my gambling debt. I feel like the worst mother ever. And like a lying deceiving gambler I lied to him why I needed the money for the rent. I told him to get...

• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Day 3 THE AFTERMATH

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Last Reply: Qwit4Good 12/31/2018

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  Day 3 and I remember this sickening feeling too well. The aftermath of having to deal with my actions. The anxiety is so bad I feel like my heart will explode. I already asked my son for the bailout money. That is the most humiliating thing I had to do is ask my 22 year Son for money. I hope I remember this feeling for the rest of my life. I feel so guilty and ashamed that I hurt both my children. I already am taking steps to remain GF.  Firstly I found on the UCLA Gambling Studies Program...

• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Posted: 12/30/2018

  chargergirl commented on the discussion Day 2 ANXIETY.

• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 12/30/2018

  chargergirl commented on the discussion Day 2 ANXIETY.

• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Day 2 ANXIETY

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Last Reply: Flashreturns 01/05/2019

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  Today I am full of anxiety. My heart is racing and I am shaking inside. I know it is nerves knowing I have to deal with the aftermath of my actions. I wrote in my journal to help ease my anxiety and it helped. Not much to say except “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change..” xoxo CG

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  Day 2 - 12/30/18 4:26am

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Posted: 12/30/2018

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  Just woke up with severe anxiety. My heart is racing thinking about the financial mess I made in such a short time. I can’t cry even though I am shaking and screaming inside. My son has no idea the awful thing I have done to jeopardize our home.  He loves me so unconditionally. Always by my side. How could I do this? I hate myself right now. The stress is overwhelming. I need help. I am afraid I am GF because I don’t have funds to gamble. I am a smart, intelligent and strong women. I am...

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  New Friend

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Posted: 12/29/2018

  chargergirl became friends with Cristiangel.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Posted: 12/29/2018

  chargergirl became friends with Cristiangel.

• Gambling Addiction & Recovery
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 12/29/2018

  chargergirl commented on the discussion Day 1 AGAIN.

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  Journal Comment

  Posted by: chargergirl

  Posted: 12/29/2018

  chargergirl commented on chargergirl's journal Day 1 - 12/29/18 6:48am