chargergirl
Status: “We are not defined by our mistakes, but how we react to them and the life journey we create despite of them”
Mood:
Horrible
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Well my son got the money for the rent and you would think that would give me some relief but it doesn’t. Actually this particular bailout is the hardest I have ever received. You see the money...
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Just woke up with severe anxiety. My heart is racing thinking about the financial mess I made in such a short time. I can’t cry even though I am shaking and screaming inside. My son has no idea the...
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Today I hit rock bottom again. Lied to myself that I could gamble again socially. Took 6 months to be in full blown gambling addiction. This disease is life long. Today is Day 1 of being GF.
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Today is my rock bottom. I know I need help for this disease.
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Why do we do this to ourselves.
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Today I lived life GF. I loved spending time with my 11 year old daughter. And we laughed hysterically at a comedy we were watching. I am grateful to all my DS friends who have given words of support...
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Survived today GF. Enjoying my evening with my daughter. Love her so much! She is only 11 and loves me unconditionally. Thank goodness she is too young to see through who I really am. A...
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I can't believe I am so lost right now. Lost in addiction, grief, loneliness, sadness and depression. No more to say right now.
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I am so happy to have made it through to Day 11. I have to say that I had strong urges on Saturday despite being very busy helping my sister with her stepson's graduation party. I had money for a...
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I feel good today. No desire to gamble. Still feeling bad about my relapse last Wednesday. But one day at a time. I know this recovery takes work and have taken several steps this week to...
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Wow I am so glad my son's graduation party was wonderful and is now over. Whew... it has been a stressful three weeks. There were over 150 people family and friends. I have not seen a lot of...
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When will this insanity end? I posted today "Feeling HORRIBLE - Back to Day 1". Hope you can read it. Thanks for your support. xoxoxo Chargergirl
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I went to my first live GA Meeting yesterday. I still like the anonymous nature of the GA Telephone Meeting. But I am committed to the GA program and recovery. I knew I had to go to a live...
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So I spent my first holiday weekend camping "old school" in a tent. It is a big change from camping in my RV last year. But then a lot has changed from one year ago. When I walked away from my...
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Well back to the drawing board. Last Sunday the stress of everything got the best of me. I know that I am an emotional gambler. It's like someone said its not about the money because I could...
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