alantm

alantm

Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost

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    why go to you ? i get blamed  ? why blame me its your girl friend thats fucking me   yes trapped anger  i should not have even gone near this subject. i cant deal with this right now   
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    i always try to fix things myself ,it comes from mum and dad not helping meif i asked for help i would get more trouble lots of blame and ten reasons why i dont count as a person even typing that...
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    when you are a kid you get upset about stuff but in a kid way you know?the normal stuffand as you get older you get upset in a new way  2 times stand out to me as a kid one at 6 or 7 when i felt ...
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    tonight im feeling bettertonight i had the first positve fleeing in months i went to work but bought a new box of pain killer things before i went i took 3 it says take 2then an hour latter took 2...
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    stuff the i thing its not killing anyone screw them
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    if i cant be fixed by the end of this month.im out of work i think ill end up on pain killers and antidepressants and thats it im totally screwed i will be sat talking about what i once was as dead...
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    tonight was really poor for me i became very down .i thought i was going to cry i tryed to keep out of peoples way so they wouldnt see me   
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    not sleaping wellmore depressed mornings really everything is unstabel for me right nowleaving friends ,job ,girlfriend, my age ,health ,confidece its hard to cling on to anything i really need to...
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    i am alonei am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am alone i am...
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    im drunk but at least i dont feel  like" that"  now i just feel numb last night i did feel like i was going to cut myself a bit just to try and get out of all this stress and i hate to say that...
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    looked back in on the SI groupand nothing has changed  one girl has made some progressbut i feel sorry for her to post in that swamp of ego & fetish fetish because the way they go on they dont need...
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    im becoming invisable fuck it whats new   
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    wish i wasnt alone today im sick of keeping up this pretence sick of the fight  going to bed before i just pass out had enough i hope i dont dream bad things  
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    ive been up a lot of hours now today has just been so long the schizophrenic in the house i had problems with isstill around he threw his tv at the wall last week he is very very moody and agressive...
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    i seem to spend every night falling to pieces its evey day now  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTLR3zHxnr8
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