when you are a kid you get upset about stuff but in a kid way you know?the normal stuffand as you get older you get upset in a new way  2 times stand out to me as a kid one at 6 or 7 when i felt  my self breake with to much pressure and the other was at 10 or 11 in a music lesson i was learning to play violin and the teacher was asking me to show him a certain noteon the music  a   B  or an E  or something and the pressure was so much i burst into tears at around 10 i was having a lot of emotional problems but i was silent and nothing ever got noticed it was like i time where things for me were hiddenand i didnt understand any othese emotions  i didnt do the troubled teen thing .i just fell to bits in my 20s  i didnt have any friends   and when i did i ran in to problems trying to deal with themthat made things worse and i ended up very illand afraid of anyone being next to me