tonight im feeling bettertonight i had the first positve fleeing in months i went to work but bought a new box of pain killer things before i went i took 3 it says take 2then an hour latter took 2 more ..says take 1 then at the 2nd half took 2 more  i did the full days pills for the show. itold every one in joking mood i was going tobe great tonight i got thought the first half some of it was hard still the first song .i wore out really but i forced myself  near the end of the second half i found i could conecet to the music again.i could feel power coming back and i was really slaming my feetthat was quite a shock how loud i could getthat lasted a few songs and i wore out a bit again but for a while i felt like i used toconected to the instrument instead of having to just get by and fake it enough to do the job to night wasnt perfect at all but the first slight sight of something  it felt like id gone home to a place i used to live  these pills are a stong type and say you cant use them formore than 3 days because it will have side effects on your heart ect but i dont really want to walk away from the first thing that gave me hope