alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
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email to a friend did the funeralit went ok as far as someone died and everyone was destroyed by it could goi did ok with the tech side of the day.it really was so much better with the music and...
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9/11 what is it with death and me these daysive kept away and now its here all the time
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odd today the grave i saw the coffin and i knew someone was in it who had been dead for a week the family cried and girlfriend then they took it out side and buried it in a hole the poeple left...
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last few days ive had the ex ringing and me saying you dont love mefirst day as a new job to do going to a funeralmoney worries rejectiontalking to the samaritains the nut case is out a lot i...
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i cut my self 3 cuts only one is anything to notice i saw a model knife and my nails were dirty from today and i was cleaning my nails with it and then i thought what the helland i cut my wrist its...
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totaly worn out today was a crazy dayim so worn out i cant even thinkso little sleaplots happened todayex even called but the crazyest thing is im going to a funneral on thursdayive been asked to...
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morning 6 am4 hours sleap my emotions are pullng at me so much
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awful night dreaming bad stuff i was screaming at my mum and day why did you do this why did you do that it upset me so much it was just like when i was ill before a long time ago i know but it...
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im feeling so isolatedand hopless i really am thinking of cutting myself again its like im forced to it i cant cope with feeling awfull again like before and it is just like before but after so...
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today MORE REJECTION and i am alone alone like before andi cant face that kind of alone again
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i feel like im slaming doors shut so much right now i feel like a ship that is sinking and the water tight doors have to close lots of rejection
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zvzq-eUN95A
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having dreams that are a messand im crying in themdreamt i wasbeing held last night and i needed it so much but its not real
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IM ALONE IN A PLACE OF BILLIONS OF PEOPLE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME
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i feel alone i am alone i know people dont get what i sayor how i DO feel they cant and i am still here with it so dont say its wrong dont say im an idiot dont say i look at it too much you...
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