alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
Mood:
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odd i cut myself with a blade by accident today thats twice this week its so strange when that happens and you didnt meen it so strange that its not by plan you have no idea how ironic that is
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bad dreams im not in control .i have had flash thoughts of cutting slight panic about my isolation death ect
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i am affraid .i really ami cant keep this up anymore
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ive been here more than a year i got here in desperationand i would say i went even worse i go up and down things are not to great but i am betterbut i did cut myself just over a week ago how i...
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typing because i feel no one hears me .i am alone tonight and i do have feelings if i try to say how i feel i get hit with a wall of silence from everyone so im ment to shut upbut i still feel the...
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tonight hit with silence again more rejection without words am i so awful? i hate to be lead in and locked out,my life is like someone in a secreat garden
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thinking its not to long till i die how odd my life has been
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nut case is back in hospital busy days feeling a bit alone im a lot better than a while agoa few axisitey things
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bought a few expensive things for work the last 2 days one retails at £3000-4000i got for 240 +post the other £1500i got for 250 +post so £4500 for £490... i had to get themits like 1 tenth...
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nutcase is back herebeen here 3 days tesion is rising hes talked about a few things its clear hes the same this puts a strain on meits like a back ground tesion
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odd dreamthe basics of it wasi was by myself left while everyone else was having a great time
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the nut case is here every other day now they said he wouldnt be back but he is he says he will be out next week i hope not this is all to soon
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dreams of worries and my ex she looked nice but she wast intressed in me
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therapy counciling what ever they classed it as i have this memory of it and its this guy laughing a light hearted reactionto me being there to me it wasnt i was walking in traffic a bad frear of...
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wirist is healing quick sleapt better with out as much stressbut having a lot of past dreams some are awfullsome are just seeing people from the past what i feel about right now is quite...
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