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I applied for and was accepted for a house about 2 hours drive away. I also got a crisis payment from the govt to help because my circumstances are so dire with the neighbors. I’m getting help from...

My efforts to stay positive have disintegrated. I’m suicidal again and can’t sleep. I’m in a constant state of fear. I think being shanghaied to hospital the other day has actually made me...

I had a home visit this morning from health care workers who became concerned for my welfare because of the horrible living situation I’m in with my abusive neighbours and I didn’t answer my...

It’s been fairly quiet here today except for a minor incident. Horrible neighbor had a girl over so he set off a klaxon he had on an old car in the backyard. Girl giggled, he gave his normal nasty...

The good news is my dog perked up when we got in the car and became more like herself. She did have diarrhoea on her walk but is now eating and drinking.The real estate agent emailed me back and said...

My dog is sick, she threw up this morning and hasn’t eaten all day. She’s sleeping now but if she’s not better in the morning I’ll have to try to get vet care for her. She is all I’ve got...

Ive decided this is not the time to give up smoking with too many stressors. The Spiriva is working well at the moment and has masked the fact I have COPD. I got a letter from the pulmonary...

The neighbours have started their harassment again. Police can do nothing if they don’t catch them in the act. Real estate agents are useless although they have a legal obligation to ensure I have...

This new social order is having extra effects that are either extra money or extra work. There is the social distancing and shortages sure, but now there is no price comparing or frugality, you just...

Lucky 13? I hope so.I am now 24 hours smoke free again, hopefully I have had my last one. I went to the pharmacy this morning and got 3 different types of inhaler so I’m not short of something to...

well I haven’t improved much but I have plenty of time to keep trying.its a lovely day today after 3 days of rain, I must try and force myself to go for a walk.saw a mouse run across the room and...

Didn’t make any much progress today. I had a few smokes. Looks like this might be a marathon more than a sprint. I still want to stop for good. I took the dog for a quick walk between the rain...

The good news is I have no ciggies and I am determined to keep it that way. Back on the horse as they say.I meditated again this morning and managed another quick one during the day. I will try to...

I feel a lot better today and although still smoking a few times a day, I am confident that I will kick the addiction. I went to the hardware store and supermarket today and stocked up a bit more...

i just had the worst couple of hours since trying to give up smoking with intense cravings and my mind telling me why bother to try. If I hadn’t had a couple of glasses of red I might have driven...