time flies

lets see i am now engaged and its the real deal. i love my fiance to pieces. we have come a long way. i moved here from san diego to be with her. it was the best decision of my life. i have learned alot. i went back to school. im currently in my first year of college. i have my own apartment now and i have three pets two cats and a smelly ferret. i have been pretty good accept for the last few weeks they have been killing me.i have been sad for no dang reason. im a pretty lucky girl. i have done a complete 360and turned my life around but man i cannot shake tis feelin. i couldnt ask for a better girl. she is there for me in all ways possible. she is funny and smart and serious and gentle. but the best thing about her is, she gets me. she listens and laughs and can be a complete goon somtimes but i think thats why we click so good. so it confuses the heck out of me when i get so sad. i realize that i am alot stronger than i was 2 years ago because when i think of hurting myself, i stop myself. i have way to much to lose. I care to much about my fiance and ur life together but also i want so much in life. i want to help troubled teens. i want to get married and buy a house and have a family of my own. i also want to travel and see the world. im sure alot of you dont care much for this so sorry for writting so much .