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  What a day...

  Posted by: SilentMaid

  Posted: 06/09/2020

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  Today has been one hell of a struggle. I can't seem to get motivated to do anything. I feel super exhausted and I'm trying to figure out why...Is it because my beloved hamster died last night? Is my child's constant neediness mentally exhausting me? Or could it be that I'm just tired because my sleep pattern has been erratic? FUCK!!!Maybe it's my hormones?? Whatever this is, I need to get up and do something...ANYTHING! I don't like being Depression Kitty. That's not my style anymore. Thinking...

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  Quarantine Life

  Posted by: SilentMaid

  Posted: 06/04/2020

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  Can I just say how insane life is! So many twists and turns. You never know what's going to happen. The many times that I contemplated taking my own life...well, I'm glad I didn't. Let me update you on my life.Since early to mid March we've been in quarantine from the Coronavirus (COVID-19). It is a new and highly dangerous virus with symptoms including:CoughFeverShortness of breathMuscle achesSore throatUnexplained loss of taste or smellDiarrheaHeadacheIt can lead to severe respiratory...

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  Sometimes I don't like other women

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  Last Reply: blooming19 05/12/2015

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  Sometimes I just don't like other women. Not because I'm a woman hater, but because I don't like women who practically throw themselves at men. It's quite irritating. A woman who feels the need to constantly have a man's attention, dresses inappropriately, and flirts with taken men really gets on my nerves. They ruin it for the rest of us. I'm not an object, I'm a person. Please respect me.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/15/2019

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/11/2019

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/21/2019

  SilentMaid became friends with Texasgirl1265.

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  Journal Like

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  Posted: 07/16/2018

  SilentMaid liked SilentMaid's journal My friend, Kevin....

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  Posted: 05/31/2018

  SilentMaid liked TeamDS's journal Affirmation for May 30th.

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  Journal Like

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  Posted: 05/27/2018

  SilentMaid liked SilentMaid's journal My sentencing at work.

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  Sudden Blues...

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  Posted: 01/30/2018

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  Just when I think I'm doing super well, BAM!--My pms anxiety and depression kick me right in the teeth!  I eat too much, I don't eat at all, I'm sad, then I'm extremely sensitive and I can't focus.  Not only that, I feel lonely (because even if my husband is good at listening to my quandries, I don't think he entirely understands these woes), I'm tired, I don't want to be around people, and I don't want to go to work because I can't fake being happy in front of my customers.  Everything...

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  Journal Comment

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  Posted: 01/24/2018

  SilentMaid commented on Bornfree65's journal Looking on the bright side

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  Posted: 01/24/2018

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  Posted: 01/24/2018

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  Plain Tired

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  Posted: 07/27/2017

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  I'm so tired.  I'm finally getting a break from work.  It's not that my job is strenuous.  I just get tired of dealing with people every day.  Sometimes it's even difficult for me to deal with my own family.  I'm the kind of person that needs to be alone to be content.  Since I was neglected as a child, I adapted to my environment and got used to being all by myself.  Having people depend on me every day is stressful.  Why people decide to keep reproducing is beyond my comprehension....

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  So many have died this week...

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  Posted: 07/22/2017

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  I thought perhaps that this week would be a wonderful one for me.  I was happy.  Then by Wednesday, it was like Death felt lonely and started taking people I knew.  First, it was Steve, who was a fellow co-worker and aquaintance.  The second death was Chester from Linkin Park, who I absolutely adored and who's music actually helped me get through some dark and difficult times.  Then, the third death this week was my wonderful friend, Thaddeus, who was married to a very beautiful woman whom...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 01/31/2017

  SilentMaid joined the group Social Anxiety.

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  Social anxiety to the max!

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  Posted: 01/31/2017

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  I fucking hate socializing all the time!  Why can't my husband understand this?!  I really don't want to deal with this tonight.  I feel like screaming and crying all at the same time.  My skin is just crawling right now at the thought of being around this family.  The wife already rubs me the wrong way.  Ugh!!!!  Fuck! 

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  Just Married...

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  Posted: 10/14/2016

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  Hello Journal, I want you to know that I just got married on Tuesday, October 11.  I'm very happy and this feels like a good place in my life, despite all of my short comings as of lately.  I'm doing much better at work. Trying to be a better person, even though the dark, vengeful side of me wants to come out and play...You know, when I sit down and have lunch or breaks with my friends and look over at Vanessa sitting all by herself, I think, 'You did this to your self...I didn't cause...

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  First Day of Autumn

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  Posted: 09/22/2016

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  Finally, Autumn is here!!!  I'm happy, but I feel like I'm almost walking on eggshells because every day I have to be extremely cautious at work with my actions and words.  I feel bad for letting down the ones I care about.  But it's hard for me to feel bad for the coworker I was harassing because I can't empathize with someone I don't care about.  Sometimes I wonder if I have a hint of being a sociopath.  Just makes me wonder...And just because someone isn't a good person, doesn't mean I...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 09/19/2016

  SilentMaid became friends with Maestro_Zero.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 09/19/2016

  SilentMaid became friends with Maestro_Zero.

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  Posted: 09/19/2016

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  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 09/19/2016

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  Posted: 09/19/2016

  SilentMaid commented on the discussion Fester.

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  Embrace my Darkness

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  Posted: 09/17/2016

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  I'm very hard on myself when I make a mistake.  I made a mistake recently by losing control at work, and it could possibly cost me my job in worst case scenario.  Now, I'm worried.  If I lose my job, I'm afraid I won't react well.  My best friend says she doesn't think I will, and I do have support from others who think I did the right thing, but I know I went about it the wrong way.  I just feel like if the ground isn't shaken in a sense, then no one makes a move.  This hatred I keep...

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  Hug

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  Posted: 09/17/2016

  SilentMaid sent a hug to Razor91