Sudden Blues...

Just when I think I'm doing super well, BAM!--My pms anxiety and depression kick me right in the teeth!  I eat too much, I don't eat at all, I'm sad, then I'm extremely sensitive and I can't focus.  Not only that, I feel lonely (because even if my husband is good at listening to my quandries, I don't think he entirely understands these woes), I'm tired, I don't want to be around people, and I don't want to go to work because I can't fake being happy in front of my customers.  Everything feels overwhelming.  I just want a break from life.  I want a break from being a woman!  I want to rip out my own uterus and stomp on it.  "TAKE THAT, YOU FUCKING BITCH!"  All these damn mood swings got me feeling like a crazy person...and it's not fair.  For once in my life, can't I feel normal?  I don't want to feel crazy.  I don't like feeling this way.  It's hard to breath.  It's even harder to live day by day.  I hate that I have to force myself to do things that need to be done.  It's one of the worst feelings in the world to have this anxiety.  Small projects seem like huge mountains of work to me, even though I know they really aren't.  This really sucks...