oleander1984

Planned OutI've got it all planned out.How I'll do itand where,and when,and everything.I've been "fine"Even though I'm really not!These suicide thoughts,I've denied them all from the start.My baby...

SufferPush the trigger next to my head;lay me down beside my bed.Kiss my dreams a sweet goodbye;I hope that one day all of you dieIll slit my wrist Ill close my eyes,no one knew that I was aliveThick...

ScarsSilenceOnly tearsAs I press the bladeAgainst my pale skinRedThe blood flowsFrom the woundsEchoing my inner painSatisfactionAs I feel the knifeSlicing into meI only deserve painAnguishAs I...

Best part of me goneI came to you the hour I was in painLooking for answers, I cried to you in vain.I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,I knew then you'd be my friend,I knew it from the...

TourniquetBy: EvanescenceI tried to kill the pain,But only brought more.(so much more)Im dying,And Im pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.Im dying,Praying,Bleeding,Screaming.Am I too lost to be...

Posted two songs that I love and right now usually are the ones that help me the most. But the videos get me in such a deeper level that I thought I would share them with everyone that hasn't seen...

Darkness fills my life everyday.But why does it, I can not say.Noone seems to believe me or the pain I go through.Noone has an idea, not a clue.Darkness is in my mind and in my sight.Everything I see...

If I'm dead and in the grave, will you still love me?If I look up, will I see the flowers you left above me?When the worms begin to feed again, it feels like when you loved me.When decay becomes my...

Sadly Smiling Through by One Less Reason"Did you even notice it when I changed?Cause I could score in your heart,But I could never placeAnd did I forget to sayI was so proud of youWhen things were...

>ThoughtsHow do you know I'm hurting if you can not see my pain?To wear it on my body tells words I cant explain!!I focus on the pain ... the only thing that's real.Cutting myself open lets me know...

Now I'm watching over you,because I cut it way too deep,don't worry I'm still watching you,I watch when your asleep,I know you miss me so much,and you loved me with all your heart,but I'm in a better...

I hate when I get looks, as if I have changed in some form or fashion.I hate when hateful words are said to me, it hurts.I hate the way I get treated, as if I was not important.I hate when I try to...

I hate that when I cry my eyes burn so bad,because they aren't used to the release.I hate that when my mom talks to me,she acts as if we are best friends.I hate that my mom blames me,for all my...

NickelbackIf Everyone Cared "If everyone cared and nobody criedIf everyone loved and nobody liedIf everyone shared and swallowed their prideThen we'd see the day when nobody diedAnd I'm singingAmen...

ImagesI am as beautiful as a rose,I am as ugly as a spider.It's all confusion to me,it's hard to know what's the truth.I am thin, yet when I look in that mirror,I see something else, something ugly...