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EVANESCENCE LYRICS "Tourniquet" I tried to kill the pain but only brought more so much more I lay dying and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming am I...

Suicide note: A suicide note i write, for people to understand, exactly what was going on in my life, i kept all my troubles inside, they kept building up and building up, until in the...

Suicide: Life is never good for me and this is what I wish you'd see.Just let me end it all for I'll be happy in the end, I'll finally be free.Free from all the pain and torment and the never ending...

Wow what to say not exactly sure nor how to say all the thoughts in my head. It's so weird growing up one way doing so much in life and then going through ECT and losing so much. I strain to remember...

What happened to this website? When I first joined it it was awesome everyone was so helpful and replied to my ?'s and such and now nothing. I'm almost tempted to just stop checking this site and...

I hate the way I seem to get for no reason. After the ECT I was doing really good for once in my life but now that we are spreading them out I have started to go down hill faster and way worse than I...

Suicidal Thoughts These suicidal thoughts That run through my mind Are the only thoughts I ever seem to find Depression has taken over me And it will never go away I try to stop the way I feel...

Suicide isn't fun, so don't try it.Suicide isn't quick, it's long and painful.Suicde never used to be me, but now it is.Suicide was never calming, always away to have so much pain it didn't hurt...

Who you areBy: Erika JoOh, beautiful child, you've got a garden of time waiting for youThere are fields full of wonder for you to uncover out thereI want to be here to watch you change and grow and...

Blah. I got my apt with the ECT doctor who actually is a doctor I have already seen when I was in the shrink ward but he is nice so that won't be so horrible. I just wanna get these apts over and...

Blah not much new just chillin' and doing what I can these days. I see my shrink (who is crazier than me) once a week and she is sched. an apt for me to talk to the ECT doctor sometime soon. I'm not...

ECTMy doctor told me to consider ECT today since we are running out of medical options. What do you all think of ECT, pro and con. This is prob the hardest decision I will ever make in my life and I...

LithiumBy: EvanescenceLithium, don't want to lock me up inside.Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.Oh, but God, I want to let it...

Blah blah blah....I know I'm lazy at least too lazy to get on the computer or at least long enough to update anything. I don't have the energy today to update cuz my kitten frank cut me up today when...

"Side Of A Bullet"By: NickelbackUncle Sam taught him to shootMaybe a little too wellFinger on the trigger, loaded bulletHe hit the stage so full of rageAnd let the whole world know itSix feet away,...