oleander1984

Well it's been a confusing few days here. Yesterday was the churches sweetheart desert, where you get to take you significant other and have chocolates, and cheesecakes, and watch the pastor sing. I...

Lately I have been feeling like I live a lie, because of what I tell people. I don't tell my grandma about the overdoses or anything that has happened all year because my mom doesn't want her to...

I lost some more weight this month so that makes me happy. Today even with the snow I went to the shed and now I'm half down, prob have to extend the date to get things done but thats the price you...

Haven't posted in awhile cuz I have been sick for the past three weeks, not fun. Finally getting better I think, never sure though. Cleaned out my room yesterday, today I gotta dust and org...

Haven't been able to do much out in the shed because of the weather I don't think I'm going to finish when I planed go figure, such is my life. It just brings me down because there are other reasons...

Got the computers and most of the kitchen stuff stuff still missing a box of kitchen stuff. Now I just just have to do the whole right side. It was a mess when my family moved last year but then...

The abuse button is for gore, nudity, or are sexually explicit or promote violence so people need to check that out before they click that a picture is one. I just liked the picture because of how...

Went to the Y like I'm supposed to and saw my trainer. She talked to me bout my weight and work out sched, it was nice to find out some stuff she had gone through as a child, but yet it still doesn't...

"Burrito"By Seether The worst is over now You said it anyhow My life in monochrome Wish I could regain control You keep taking, taking away I keep faking, faking, fakeThis is how I feel towards what...

"Truth" If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive? Though I'm closer to wrong I'm no further from right And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me Convinced on the...

Gotta love doctors and shrinks, not. They want me to tell them how I feel and what I think so I tell them to an extent. Thats not saying I don't want to be better thats saying I know better than to...

I know the effects of going off my meds and stuff and how dangerous that can be but yet I also know that I don't feel like myself anymore since the meds and I'm sick of it. I know if I go off the...

Blue OctoberX-Amount Of Words Relapse Prevent trigger intent Now drown High strung Say X amount of words You're solar, bipolar Panic disorder Seems harder and harder and harder Still you...

Saw my shrink today, I think she may be crazier than me. She told me today she doesn't think meds are the way for me, seeing as how nothing is working. So she started talking about religion and my...

I rush to the bathroom and lock the door,I can't stand the pain; I can't stand it anymore.I go to the cabinet for that lethal pill,Knowing that this one will help or kill.My friends received the...