Thinking I am close to being done.

I am fed up!  I have been trying and trying to do what is right and where has it got me?  Absolutely no friggin where!  Seems like everything I touch turns to crap and like I can do nothing right.  I can't seem to get to where I want to be.  It doesn't make any sense to me to keep spinning my wheels.  Yeah I am three weeks sober but why?  At least when I was drunk I didn't feel like I was losing it or shaking or screwing things up.  I can't drink but I want to.  My mind is racing and will not shut the hell up.  Hmmm I bet I could shut it up.  I want to permanently shut it up.  Turn it offOh nevermind.  I don't know what the hell I am saying 

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3 weeks,you need to be proud of that,
I\'m here for you
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Your mood will change when things kick in so hang in there girl..... I can only imagine how difficult it is for you at the moment but please just hang in there! 3 weeks of sobriety is amazing and there is every possibility that your mood will change when the other stuff is more settled. Stay strong sweetie......IT WILL GET BETTER!!