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- I never really give much thought to my birthday its normally just a day that I get to share with a holiday and famly. Turning older has always just been another year. This year its different. I'm dreading turning 23. Thats how old Trent was when he...
- Have you ever had a dream that woke you up so suddenly and it left you feeling unsettled?I used to be a big dreamer I dreamed every night and I always remembered my dreams the stories I could tell about them. Ever since Trent passed its rare I dream...
- I like to think of myself as a good person, a forgiving person as well. But when is it enough? The relationship I have with my father in law hasn't been an ideal one. I've put up with a lot and I've forgiven him more then he probably deserves. Back...
- Tomorrow is my birthday (can you say double whammy) and for the first time I'm dreading it and Christmas I love both. I love surprising people with gifts and the fun wrapping ideas but this year I don't want to do it. My mom is having a hard time...
- I'm finding my self more tired lately and not just sleep tired. I'm tired of pretending I'm okay when I'm not but people don't want to hear your not okay. I'm tired of people telling me how strong I am like I have a choice to be. Someone at work...
- I'm sitting here at work and I started looking at pictures and that led to me doing something I haven't done read the text messages he sent me. Naturally I got upset and I had to stop. Why do we do that to ourselves why keep reliving the pain like...
- I've just gotten some good news and I feel kind of bad because I have no one to really share with so I thought I would share with you all. I would usually tell Trent and he would make me feel so special about it and it always made me happy that he...
- The three month mark is slowly approaching and I'm still in shock I keep expecting him to come home. I haven't really touched too much because I do still expect him to come back and I know I'm not ready to go through a lot of his things there are...
- Trent and I live in the upstairs of a garage and as I sit here I've noticed the return of the dreaded stink bugs. Trent was my savior when it came to them. The first time we moved up here we didn't know what to do so Trent got the vacuum and used...
- The other day I saw something and I thought how much I would love to try that and it got me thinking about things. I want to start making a list of things I want to do and I know normally its called a Bucket List but I think I'm to young to have one...
- On Friday I left to go stay with my brother for a few days. Everything was going great until last night. It was nice being around people who didn't know and didn't ask how I was doing every five minutes. I had fun we went to the Renaissance Festival...
- Hi my name is Allie. I lost my husband Trent on August 10th, 2015 he was 23. We were married for 3 years and together for 6. We met in High School and he didn't have it easy. We were together 6 months when he moved in with my family. He died in a...
- Yesterday I went back to work. My family has a little shop in a little town. I'm the one who runs it for the most part while I wait to find a real job. I graduated from college in May and I'm taking another year in order to get my certificate so...
- I've had a rough couple of days with today being the worst. I can usually make it through the day only crying a handful of times but today the cries turned into sobs. I think part of it comes from the lack of sleep the other part normal grieving and...
- I lost my husband eight days ago in a swimming accident. I want to know when will I stop expecting him to walk through the door. I know hes gone but I keep expecting him to come home I keep waiting to hear his footsteps on the stairs.