Johnzilla

I'd forgotten how fun life can be when you start caring again. Suzy seems to like me from what she's saying which in turn really makes me smile and keeps me on a natural high. Like me, she is sad...

Man, what a difference a few hours can make in a person's outlook on life!!Saturday night was the first date with Suzy at Farnesis Restaurant. Had dinner then a couple of beers and Fireball shots...

Since the filing, serving and delivering to the court and its really amazing how a lot of the stress I had been feeling now feels like it has lifted.I know the emotions are still there but its like...

She will have her freedom to do whatever or whoever the f--- she wants to then!!

but why does it hurt so bad?  I know its something I needed to do but dammit, it shouldn't tear out every bit of my heart and soul doing it!I was ok in the office until she started stamping the case...

This f-ing roller coaster just keeps on going!!!  Last night I felt really good but tonight, no.  I couldn't get her off of my mind tonight and I don't know why.maybe because it was Saturday I knew...

Well, just got home from patrol and am in a pretty good mood instead of the usual late night funk.  In a week, I'll get to meet S face to face for the first time and it should be fun. Dancing? God,...

But I'm hoping I can file the papers tomorrow and get the ball rolling. I think I have everything I need, just need to sign everything and take it in.i never thought it was going to hurt as bad as it...

I'm not exactly sure when this week but I still plan on filing the papers so I can begin the ending process. The tough thing right now is preparing myself emotionally for it as my heart doesn't want...

Something I hoped wouldn't have to happen is going to this week when I take the papers to the courthouse to file and get the divorce proceedings underway.I had most of the proper forms already done...

So I just need to file it now and get her to sign the disclosure waiver which shouldn't be a problem and will make it a little easier.  I need to call the legal assistance place Monday and get a...

On the calendar, it's 8/26.  On the clock, 8:26.  On the cash register, $8.26.  They're only numbers but why do they bring up emotion so easily?  It all comes down to the first date and the...

The old Jim Croce song... and what I'm feeling tonight. Taking the pictures out of the frames, ripping them up and probably going to burn them along with cards she gave me.  There are a lot more, I...

The first visit to see Mady at K's house is over and as I figured, it ended up being emotional but I was able to hold back the tears until I left. The baby and I had a good time and thankfully K...

Busy day again, need to shut everything down and get some good sleep so I can start to settle my mind and with that the ensuing emotions. I make it thru the morning and work day fine but come the...