Filing This Week
Something I hoped wouldn't have to happen is going to this week when I take the papers to the courthouse to file and get the divorce proceedings underway.I had most of the proper forms already done this weekend but just needed to get a couple of others that I was missing and an attorney was able to tell me exactly which ones I needed to file and which I just give to her as disclosure.
I think I'm ready to do the deed, at least intellectually because emotionally, its still an open wound that is going to take time to heal.
I'm pretty sure that divorce is Latin for "Rip his heart out thru his balls and take his self-esteem with it" because it's taken a pretty strong toll on me and I know its far from over. I should have let her do the paperwork since she's the one that wants the divorce so bad, especially now that he is in the picture. I know though that if I did, she still would have pawned it off saying it was too confusing and it would have been right back in my lap anyway.
I doubt she's feeling any emotion as I haven't seen her cry since that night in July when she begged me to give her another chance. The November night she told me she was done, nothing. The brief talk a couple of weeks ago, nothing. Nothing but what I'm seeing as an emotionless robot that is more than willing to just throw me away in search of a greener pasture.
Nobody loved her more than I did and to have been tossed aside twice really hurts. Last summer when we tried to work things out, I should have turned my back on her but I had to see if we could rekindle it only to find she brought buckets of water with her to keep that from happening.
I sure did a fine job of messing up my life but its time to move on..
I think I'm ready to do the deed, at least intellectually because emotionally, its still an open wound that is going to take time to heal.
I'm pretty sure that divorce is Latin for "Rip his heart out thru his balls and take his self-esteem with it" because it's taken a pretty strong toll on me and I know its far from over. I should have let her do the paperwork since she's the one that wants the divorce so bad, especially now that he is in the picture. I know though that if I did, she still would have pawned it off saying it was too confusing and it would have been right back in my lap anyway.
I doubt she's feeling any emotion as I haven't seen her cry since that night in July when she begged me to give her another chance. The November night she told me she was done, nothing. The brief talk a couple of weeks ago, nothing. Nothing but what I'm seeing as an emotionless robot that is more than willing to just throw me away in search of a greener pasture.
Nobody loved her more than I did and to have been tossed aside twice really hurts. Last summer when we tried to work things out, I should have turned my back on her but I had to see if we could rekindle it only to find she brought buckets of water with her to keep that from happening.
I sure did a fine job of messing up my life but its time to move on..
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You didn\'t mess your life up, you gave your marriage another shot. You did what you thought she was willing to do. There is nothing wrong with that. You say no one loved her more than you did. Well, maybe it\'s time to feel someone who can love you more, give back to them what you give them. Have you thought about that? Life and a new love is just beginning for you, don\'t think too much about if she is happy for it will only bother your more, sadden your more. I know, because I did that for a few days after the break-up with my boyfriend. Thinking...he\'s occupied he doesn\'t feel a thing. Guess what, it matters but it doesn\'t. Too much thought about him with someone else doesn\'t help me grow or move forward, it keeps him in my heart, causing me to resent him. That\'s not who I am nor who I care to be. You should have made her do the paperwork, if she wants out let her pay for it, let her get the ball rolling...let it come out of her pocket.
Someone is waiting for you. I know it\'s hard to believe that now, but she is waiting on you to get your emotions and head right. So she can love you as you deserve.
Thank you my friend!!