Been A Few Days Now

Since the filing, serving and delivering to the court and its really amazing how a lot of the stress I had been feeling now feels like it has lifted.
I know the emotions are still there but its like they've been pushed way to the back. It has to be that I now see there is some closure with the end date coming up in a few months so it doesn't feel as painful as it was just a week ago.
Wednesday night was a big test when I saw the baby and didn't lose it. Hell, I even gave her (stbx) a hug as I left so maybe I have crossed a major threshold. For some reason I didn't feel any emotion when I saw that her eyes were swollen and red so she had just had a major cry a few minutes before. If I'd seen that a few weeks ago, it would have really upset me but Weds I was able to just walk away and actually felt a little justified inside.
Is it because I was deep inside happy to finally see some emotion, some sign of heartbreak on her part? I don't know. She couldn't have been crying over "us" so maybe something happened between the two of them and if it did, more power to it. All I know is that it didn't bother me so I have to count that as a major step forward in the process that I dreaded having to go thru but now find myself immersed in.