Another Day

I'm not exactly sure when this week but I still plan on filing the papers so I can begin the ending process. The tough thing right now is preparing myself emotionally for it as my heart doesn't want to but my head knows that it's the only thing we can do.
I wake up in the morning in that empty bed and sometimes feel like crying but what can I do? She's gone and she's not coming back.  I'm sure that she is waking up with him a day or two a week so I know she is happy.  How the fuck was she able to move on so quick?  I think she actually had him in her sights while we were still trying to work things out which did nothing more than doom the effort at that time.
I'm starting to get mad again which can only help me in that the sadness will take a back seat to my anger...maybe that is how I need to operate where she is involved. I need to stay angry when seeing her or thinking about her.