dont know

dont know how I feel right now...I increased my dose of Zoloft to 200mg (which is what my pdoc wanted me on a year ago) and I think it is knocking me around a bit....I am really tired and just...I dont know...numb I guess....after a week of feeling so anxious and depressed constantly and now to feel nothing..its strange...will hopefully feel happy soon.The thing that scares me now is that I will have the SI urges back because I dont feel least if I SI i will feel alive...ok enough about that...dont want to talk myself into SI.