nancyzoman

We all have this idea that the day will come where we no longer feel angry, sad, fearful ashamed, frustrated, jealous, envious, humiliated, embarrassed, or anxious on a regular basis. We all have...

I don't broadcast my business success very much anymore amongst friends, but lately my friends have been making remarks that I'm not very successful or that they heard I'm not doing well with it. I...

When the weather starts to warm up, as it is now, I see the sun and it makes me want to jump in my car and race to the casino. A little thrill, a little excitement. Sometimes I feel like the...

Every once in a while I have a day when I start to see the light between the clouds. Today it hit me that I was in business for three years when I quit gambling, but I only doubled the business in...

Traveled last week, had erratic sleep patterns over the weekend, woke up late for work. Rolled in wearing sweats, no one seemed to notice or care. I'm super tired. Leaving for a doctor appointment at...

I stole this one from Cheryl Strayed.I use gambling to escape from negative feelings. But I realize now that the frustration, the irritation, the anxiety, the nervousness, the "I can't take it...

I gambled because my life was about being a type A professional and this was another way to "win."But the high from any win doesn't last. My life has been all about the destination, never the...

No matter how good I feel, it's important to remember that I'm only eight months, or 252 days, in.A year ago, I was spending 4-6 days per week at the casino. I would go sometimes before work, and...

While I'm journaling here, another thing I should mention is that mindful eating is helping to rid me of my emotional eating habits.I only eat when I'm actually physically hungry, and I stop when I'm...

It's been really hard lately to fight the urge to gamble again.I feel like some things are out of control right now. I recently had to have emergency surgery, and I'm in a lot of pain. I'm nervous...

Here on Day 202.I'm down 20 pounds.People often ask me why I seem so happy nowadays. It's probably because I finally got the 500-pound gorilla off of my back!I "borrowed" money from people I...

Day 131 today of no gambling.Instead of gambling, I've spent my time and money:+Meditating, and on meditation candles and meditation-related books.+Reading, and on self-help and nutrition-based...

It was incredibly tough in the beginning, but quitting gambling is one of the very best things I have ever done. 

Down to 126 this morning, from 144 in June!

I think about all of the time and money I spent at casinos sometimes. It's a strange thing -- part of me can't believe something as inane as a game had such a pull over me that I would spend 10-20...