Alphonsus

Stbx and I have a mediator now.  We're trying to reach an agreement without having to have separate lawyers and going through the entire battle at each other's throat thing.  So far things look...

She doesn't want to be married to me, anymore.  After all the struggle, this is finally, irretrievably, irrevocably, the end.She just told me tonight.  I don't know how I'm reacting to it yet.I'm...

I guess you really can't go home again.I can't make myself even remotely resemble the person I used to be in DS.  I don't have the courage or the self-confidence to help people like I once did....

Where am I right now?  I'm not sure.  I'm in a very indecisive place .  I'm spiraling out of control in some ways.  I feel like I have no foundation.  Nothing solid to believe in.  No self...

My wife is back.Kinda.She left her boyfriend due primarily to living conditions.  She still loves him.I've taken her back in.  She sleeps downstairs while I sleep upstairs.I guess the difficult...

Is it wrong to want my old life back?Is it wrong to want my wife back?The possibility exists, but a lot depends on how much I choose to make it happen.  She's made my life hell in some ways.  In...

Back to work today.  Whoopee.

I called in sick again today.  I spent most of the day sleeping.  I think I needed it.  I don't really know.I've been here today off and on.  I read the posts from people in deep states of...

I called in sick to work today.  I said that I had stomach flu, but in reality I spent most of the night dinking on the computer and drinking a 2 liter of Mountain Dew right out of the bottle (such...

My wife left me for another man.No, that is not what I'm supposed to say.  I'm supposed to say that we agreed on a trial separation and that she is traveling to be with friends and family.Which is...

Way too tired to type or even think straight.  I can't stop yawning.  I'm wondering if sleep might be a good solution to these problems.  We shall find out. 

Sigh.  What would it take to make me feel alive again? I mean, yes, there are moments when I feel alive and worthwhile.  But those are few and far between these days.  I remember when I had...

WTF!  I'm in a good mood.  Who'd a thunk it? I'm starting to feel more like myself again, whatever that means.  I need to tap into my creative side again and be more social.  I'm sick of hiding...

I am genuinely forcing myself to write this, as I don't feel impelled to say anything.  There is nothing on my mind that I want brought either to my own or anyone else's attention.  But I feel I...

Just a general update, sans purple prose or rhyming claptrap. My life has not been going too bad in general.  My boss has been riding me hard, but I think that this is something I need as I'm...