Alphonsus

I am going to try to live by the following laws.  The higher laws supercede the lower ones. 1.   Do what has to be done, ALWAYS.1a. If it's not right, do not do it.2.   If it's not true, do not...

Alphonsus Log: Stardate 1304.5 My work day started out well, but then the same old confusion feelings began to take over again.  By the time I was finished with my afternoon meeting my brain was...

Alphonsus log: Stardate 1296.0 -- way too early. I'm trying out my emergency backup personality.  It's pretty much the same as the old one, except this one doesn't have all the emotional baggage...

Alphonsus Log: Stardate 1290.0 There was a period in my life when I was forced to choose between the completely unacceptable and the completely intollerable.  Needless to say, I had trouble living...

Twice last night I started making a new journal entry.  Twice last night I took actions which, either accidentally or clumsily, sent my words, my emotions, my feelings, into cybernetic...

Unproductive day at work.  Quite productive at home.  Mowed the lawn front and back.  Between that and helping my Mother-in-law move on Sunday, my every muscle is screaming in pain.  Oh well,...

Alphonsus log: Stardate 1247.0Well, I some how managed to drag myself back over to Daily Strength yesterday, and, for whatever reason, my mood of the last month immediately improved.  The question...

Trying today to pull my life back together.  My ability to concentrate is virtually non-existant.  I start to do something "useful," and my mind gets so easily distracted that I have to remind...

My mind is just ... dead. I'm not making it. Sigh.

Hello, folks.  Sorry for not having been around for a while, but I've been rather weird.  I am profoundly apathetic about things of late, and lying beneath the layer of apathy lays/lies/lay a deep...

Ok, so I know that you manifest worry and are incapable of internalizing it.  What comes out is personal attacks. I know that you've been in a state of mania and is swinging down now into...

I'm feeling a tiny bit better.  Thank you all for your support.  Every little bit helps. I must leave this entry now.  The cat needs me. Love,Alphonsus

I'm just so fucking depressed right now, and I don't even know why!  It's like I crossed some invisible line in the sand. I don't want to do anything.  I'm just vegetating, taking up space at the...

Don't know why, and I don't have anything else to say.  Hugs, everyone.

Just feeling a bit blue in general.  Not getting things done at work again.  Just not caring very much.  The wife is a bundle of energy.  I'm not quite sure what is causing my lack thereof. I...