Alphonsus

I remember being young and full of youth and spriteAnd every day I woke up and burst out to the lightAnd all my dreams and complex schemes to stand on top the worldAnd every thought a new soul bought...

What the hell is wrong with me? , or Is it reallynot so much myself as it is the nature of society?  Society is structured in such a way that I don't "fit?" I look around and it doesn't seem as if...

It took 9 minutes for my computer at work to boot up this morning. I spent those 9 minutes staring at the screen. 9 minutes. It takes about 9 minutes for the light from the sun to reach the...

'Twas sad and a wee bit upsetting here on DS today. It is sad to see so much infighting on the boards.  Frightening, to an extent.  We like to call it drama, but drama is really just a kind word...

My wife felt horrible the night before last...stomach.  I didn't sleep and felt horrible yesterday morning.  I let a good friend down last night.  Horrible squared. I just want to go home and...

Through various experiments over the holiday weekend, the exact nature of which I shan't go in to detail about, I have discovered that I seem to be completely immune to the effects of the cannabis...

Life isn't about taking the safe path all the time, is it? Fear is a given.  That which holds us back is that which we fear, and there is always something to fear, isn't there? There really is...

Today's fog index was low...I felt relatively clear headed.  Call it a seven.  Mood was ok to good.  Productivity was very low.  Call it a 2.  Perhaps I suffer from some kind of OCD.  The...

One can always learn new things about oneself, can't one? DS has a way of conveying moods...green happy faces...yellow ok faces, and red sad faces.  This is, of course, laughably over-simplified...

I am going to try to live by the following laws.  The higher laws supercede the lower ones. 1.   Do what has to be done, ALWAYS.1a. If it's not right, do not do it.2.   If it's not true, do not...

Alphonsus Log: Stardate 1304.5 My work day started out well, but then the same old confusion feelings began to take over again.  By the time I was finished with my afternoon meeting my brain was...

Alphonsus log: Stardate 1296.0 -- way too early. I'm trying out my emergency backup personality.  It's pretty much the same as the old one, except this one doesn't have all the emotional baggage...

Alphonsus Log: Stardate 1290.0 There was a period in my life when I was forced to choose between the completely unacceptable and the completely intollerable.  Needless to say, I had trouble living...

Twice last night I started making a new journal entry.  Twice last night I took actions which, either accidentally or clumsily, sent my words, my emotions, my feelings, into cybernetic...

Unproductive day at work.  Quite productive at home.  Mowed the lawn front and back.  Between that and helping my Mother-in-law move on Sunday, my every muscle is screaming in pain.  Oh well,...