I guess you really can't go home again.
I can't make myself even remotely resemble the person I used to be in DS.  I don't have the courage or the self-confidence to help people like I once did.  Most posts leave me sitting at the comment box, fingers on the keyboard, with absolutely nothing to say.
I keep hoping it will all come back to me, but so far no luck.
One of my greatest joys is being able to help other people.  It gives me a purpose in life--gives it meaning.  I hope I can get that back one day.
In the mean time, I'll keep lurking around.  I'm here.  I'm just being very quiet.
Hugs to all of you,
Steve