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- So here is my question....Is it ok to caretake if it makes you happy and brings you joy? And at what point in caretaking is it just a nice way of saying that I am controlling everything and everyone?I love to do things for other people. I used to...
- This weekend I went to play golf with my hubby. We thought maybe we could try to be friends. Well what I discovered is that I don't really enjoy him as a friend.When I discarded the thoughts of us being husband and wife and all that goes along with...
- I am feeling very calm and relaxed today. A bit sad but yet still calm. I am wondering why it is so hard for me to see life as it is. That it does not need to be all about a man. A lot of wonderful things that have happened to me in my life had...
- I have been on this site for a while now and have read many posts about "when he texted me" or "I ran into him at the market" , etc... But I never had much experience with it. My first nutcase last year did not live close and when I went no contact,...
- I don't think we realize just how much help we are to others. Well I am here to sing your praise. I was feeling very down again after finding a bunch of old bills with mine and my hubby's name on them. I felt like I was lost. Like I had lost my life...
- Well today I did not want to get up. I am severely depressed. I guess what my father did to me yesterday was so humiliating that I am not dealing with it well.I have allowed him to get into my soul once again. When he was first saying that stuff, it...
- Why is it that we feel so connected to our family? Why is it that we take what they say into ourselves?I was doing pretty well today until talking with my dad just a few minutes ago. You have to know that my dad was always my favorite. He liked to...
- Just read a post and had a wonderful thing pop into my head. It's like connecting the Dots lately:So when I was a child my parents had so much of their own crap that they ignored us kids. My mother was never there for me. She never protected me or...
- There are two friends and one of them is a traveling salesman who has to go out on the road every two or three weeks and sometimes he's even gone for 3 months at a time. After one of these lengthy trips, he comes back and he drives back into his...
- I am losing my mind! I can't seem to let go. I e-mailed my husband that it was over. Done. And I was ok. That was this morning. Now he e-mailed me back and is saying that he is angry at all the stuff I have done to him. He is only reacting to my...
- Therapist told me to write 3 things a day that say Yay me. Thought you might like to participate with me.Here are my 3 for today:1. When my hubby wrote me his vague e-mail, I sat on my hands so that I would not respond. I wanted to respond and react...
- I am so sad today. I have once again caused myself extreme pain by my actions. I had no faith and no trust in my husband that I could talk to him and tell him that I wanted to get 1/2 my stuff. I went to his house while he was gone with his...
- Trying very hard to keep thoughts only about me. This is hard. My head contantly wants to go to him. It also wants to allow just the critic to dominate my thoughts. I am fighting hard to stay with me and my cheerleader. I was about to write about...
- I sent my husband who is on vacation with his girlfriend a text. It said I have put him in a box wrapped it with love and stored it deep down in my heart. Here is what he replied: I hope it is not Forever. No signal here most of the time. Peaceful,...
- I have moved all my stuff out of my husbands house(our house) and now I get to look forward to divorce. It all sucks. It is sucking the life out of me. I don't know how to get past the sadness? I feel like such a failure. I am going to be 50 next...