jamesross
Status: Glad to be with recovery again. it's been a hell of a rough journey getting back, but I do want it very bad this time. I'm just trying.
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Well, back from the Dr's. T.B. test was alright. Nothing there. What a frigging ride that was. It's very windy outside, and I haven't been riding bikes for quite some time. Damned hills got me...
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Last night Sheldon called and said him and Stephan were staying at his freinds. I think after I talked to Dillon, he must have talked to Sheldon. It was so nice this morning waking up to peace and...
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Well, I still seem stressed to the max lately. The other day I blew up at Bob because he came around four to pick me up. I was really fit to be tied that day. Really not like me. Today too I...
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Just got in from working with Bob's son, cleaning a rental place. Wasn't too bad today. Mayby because of the sun or something, but I did feel a little better. i didn't feel so desperate anyway....
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I'm writting my journal today, just trying to get some of this stress out. I haven't been on here because things just feel so messed up. Looking for jobs here is useless. There just isn't...
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Feeling pretty shity lately. loseing that job has really messed me up emotionaly. I'm all worried now about things. Sheldon is starting to iritate me too. I don't say anything, but he's...
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Feel pretty good, at least healthwise. Still feeling a little run down, and not at full energy. I've been working pretty hard tho with Bob the past few days. Sanding, mudding and painting....
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Had a pretty good day. Worked with Bob, and didn't have much pain. I seem to be getting over the worst. Thank the Lord for that, and my real friends here. Bob offered me a job with him working...
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Feeling alot better today. Had a good sleep for a change. No tossing and turning for hours. That's great. I hope the worst is over, but I feel leary about it. Sometimes you can be alright one...
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I think I'm starting to feel a little better. Headache isn't like a volcano anymore. I took some of the clonazepam the Dr gave me. That's helping. I've been eating like a horse. Not sure if it's...
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Another day of being down, and feeling sick. Went to the Dr's today to see if he could help. I was almost begging, and came close to crying. I feel so awful. I'm still very restless and having...
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Well, I couldn't make it through detox. i got through the hospital, and through one night of detox, but couldn't handle the morning. they only allow you one cigarette after each meal, and that...
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The past few days I've been all over the place. Frustrated, angry, worrying. It's been real hell. Just from saying those three words, "Go fuck yourself." i really didn't intend on those words...
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Had a realy bad day today. I got fired. I think that it was set up between the chef and the manager. We were doing Shepherds pie in caserrole dishes. Now it's a little hard when you don't do it the...
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Well, things as usual at the trailer are heading the same as always, nowhere. Ed and Dian just don't know what they are doing. Their too old and can't run it properly. Dian spends her days telling...
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