Well, I couldn't make it through detox. i got through the hospital, and through one night of detox, but couldn't handle the morning. they only allow you one cigarette after each meal, and that was just too hard on top of everything. i really feel like shit now. All day I've been in bed, restless as hell. I feel like I just want to explode. I feel so depressed too about the job and everything. It's all playing on my head making me worry. I am such a fuck up. Don't like myself at all right now. Just trying to do this journal for something to do to get going. Supposed to work for Bob's son tomorow. Not sure how that will be, but I have to do something. Can't just sit around like this. Hopefully I'll be better tomorow.