Feel pretty good, at least healthwise. Still feeling a little run down, and not at full energy. I've been working pretty hard tho with Bob the past few days. Sanding, mudding and painting. That's enough to make anyone sore. Especially when I've been out of that for awhile. I feel kind of down abit today. Just don't feel much happiness. I got a registered letter today from work stating my termination, and giving my last pay. In a way I don't miss that job really. Didn't really like it, but it had the benefits. I don't know how I'm going to manage my medication now. I got it filled the other day, so I'm alright for now. I feel like just drinking today. Just feels like this is the way life is, and not much is going to change. Stephan is making a mess of the place today because Sheldon is tired and doesn't want to get out of bed. He's really got it hard. Raising a kid alone, and trying to work isn't easy. I find the little time I'm around Stephan can be pretty trying at times. Working with Bob yesterday was very hard. After I spent about ten hours there I was done tired and wanted to go home. Then they lost the keys for the van and spent two hours looking for them. I was really getting fed up. I was so tired and hungry, and it was freezing outside. The place we are working on doesn't have electricity. The other night I was painting a room in the dark. Life with Bob is very differeant, and trying. Yes, he's a good guy in ways, but crazy as hell. At se my job telling him to g fuck himself, witch is pretty often, but in this work that's normal and everyone knows it, so it's alright. I just feel like sleeping now. All my hours are changed. Instead of getting up at 4am, I get up about 9am, kind of better, I guess. But my nights are spent working and I come home and just fall into bed now. Can't always sleep right away. Just feel a little lost today.