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I just don't know what to do. I can't take anything else.  I had to call the cops on my middle son again. This time he kicked my mom while she was driving all because he was mad about having to go...

I took my younger two to the states attorneys office today. I knew the older of the two was not going to turn out good since our last meeting (2 weeks ago) he was told he had to stay out of trouble,...

I can't do it anymore, i'm already at my breaking point but he keeps pushing me. I feel as if nobody wants me to be truly happy.my depression starts to lesson but then someone needs to feel the need...

I'm done just done! I can't deal with his shit any more. There is part of me that just wants to sign custody over to his dad but I can't. If I did that it would defeat the purpose of me taking them...

ugh! I just want to scream, punch something. I'm just so sick of everyone reminding how much of a bad mother I am. how I fail at everything. I'm just done feeling sad, lonely, pissed off and having...

Earlier this summer my 11 yr old & 13 yr old decided they were going to sneak out of the house with a "friend" who I had told them to stay away from. told them he was trouble. Of course i'm  just...

I just want today to end, it's not even half over yet. I don't have time to update everything right now since I'm getting ready for work but I will when I get home tonight. I will probably be coming...

Going to try & make it a good day. Went to the gym only did an hour but I can work my way back up. Now getting read for work, guess who forgot to bring a towel to bathroom with them. yep I did, lef...

just laying here watching tv, thinking, & drinking. I know, I shouldn't be drinking but after today I needed something. I was really just wanting cigarette but I made a promise that I wouldn't start...

the scale is moving in the wrong direction

ugh i'm at the point where i'm annoyed by    the little things. I just don't know anymore, I have no motivation for anything just getting out of bed is a chore. if I could stay in bed all day I...

just laying here  thinking again after a long day at work. feeling so completely alone I hate this feeling. I just want the pain, loneliness, and sadness to end. I want to be happy, I want to like...

yesterday I told a friend how bad my depression has got in the past few weeks all I got in return was silence. I went to lunch with another friend and we talked about my depression a little bit but I...

was hoping for a good nights sleep and falling asleep without crying myself to sleep but it doesn't look that is going to happen tonight. still wide awake at 1:15 am and feel like crying but don't...

I'm so tired of being lied to. The last few months at least I feel that I've been lied to by everyone that is important to me.  I'm tired of acting like I'm fine when in reality I curl myself up...