what's next

I took my younger two to the states attorneys office today. I knew the older of the two was not going to turn out good since our last meeting (2 weeks ago) he was told he had to stay out of trouble, at school, & with the law. well if you read last nights journal then you know he went stupid!! Well because of that stupidity he was charged with assault so he now has a police report on him  (well another one) & last week he got suspended from school. The fact that he can't or won't learn from his mistakes his behavior has landed him in court. Now on top of all the other bs i''m trying to deal with I have to let his dad know what he did & give him a chance to be a dad & go to court. The only thing that asshole will use it for is to use against me in his quest for visitation. The asshole has choose NOT to use the visitation he has in about 8 years now he's forcing my kids to see him when my boys want nothing to do with him. My middle son (the one going to court) doesn't seem phased by what he has done or that he's going to court & he just gave his dad shit to use against me. I'm trying to keep my head up but I feel like I'm drowning. just wish I had someone to curl up with & know it would be okay but once again I'm all alone. I just want it all to end