just laying here watching tv, thinking, & drinking. I know, I shouldn't be drinking but after today I needed something. I was really just wanting cigarette but I made a promise that I wouldn't start smoking again & I don't break my promises. when I met with the states attorney that even though the other kid, that was with my younger two, admitted to doing most of  the damages and told them my youngest didn't do any & my middle one did a few I have to pay more than his family. total bs!!! I know i'm responsible for part of the damages but to have to pay more than his parents when he admitted he did it. UGH!!!!! then I get a flat guess that's what I get for looking at my tires & saying I need to get 2 new ones. to finish off the night my oldest son who lives with my parents got into a verbal fight with the neighbor who has been bringing it on for months. he kept saying things to my son & when my son got mad & yelled back the neighbor called the cops. i'm starting to hate this ahole as much as I hate my ex! at what point do I say enough is enough. I can't handle any more so just gonna drink & cry i'm  done