just laying here  thinking again after a long day at work. feeling so completely alone I hate this feeling. I just want the pain, loneliness, and sadness to end. I want to be happy, I want to like myself. I need to let go but i'm just to scared to open up. i'm afraid of getting hurt again. I hate feeling this way it sucks!!! maybe tomorrow during my few ours that i'm home I will try to open up in a discussion.