Friend19

I went through and deleted more people from my friends list who have zero activity or I haven't spoke to in a while...If you feel like I have deleted you in error please send me a friend request =)...

I don't like the chat all that much, so if I log off right when you log on, or even if you send me a message, it's not because I'm upset. I just didn't feel like meeboing.

I'm sorry to everyone that I am such a horrible friend =(

How do I get motivation? Where can I find it?

Today I went through and deleted all my old [still loved] friends who I haven't spoken to in probably over two years... If you notice I have deleted you on accident, please add me back. I'm sorry too...

 I'm screwed up.I know I have to be screwed up because the world keeps shutting me in. I will never find a job, and if I ever do it wont last long because nobody wants a depressed employee. I'm...

My blood tests were all normal except for my netrophiles [sp?] were elevated and I have high Glucose. That means my body is sick from something...And I need more blood tests to see if I'm...

I hated the doctors app, every minuet of it. As soon as the doctot asked about if I was in school or working I burst into tears and couldn't stop through out the entire appointment.  She ruled out a...

I finally made a appointment for my stomach and digestive problems. Even though I don't throw up everything anymore, since Sunday I've started to feel worse. =(

I don't know why it has been so hard for me to post my journals for you guys to read. For a while now I've become to anxious to even talk about whats hurting me online. Iv'e become a mess. Wy is it...

Today, not too long ago two men about my age were just outside my apartment using the stair case to my front door as a skateboard ramp. I could hear them laughing and having a good time. I wanted to...

somebody kill me please....

.... I don't have anything new to journal about. lol

Today at work I started to cry. I don't know why. The lady who was training me thought it was something she said, I told her it wasn't. It felt good to just cry, I wasn't embarressed. I just couldn't...

I've lost approximetely 15 pounds now in the last 2 weeks. I no longer give a damn about what's wrong with my health, in fact I hope I'm at 0 real soon.