Pulpit

It is dark in the depths...

* I can't sleep so I need to write.   I feel I am in a battle field with the enemy.    I need to win!  Thoughts of suicide are consuming me.   The voices are raging for my soul.  I need to...

Another day gone by......glad it's over.   Feeling very deeply depressed today.  Oh well, what else is new.  My pdoc is gone until thursday so I didn't get to talk to him.   *sigh*

I am off to my CBT appt.  This doctor really bugs me...!   I had an awful nights sleep and woke up feeling shaky and sick.  I am trying to get the energy to get dressed and get out to my...

Day #5...I almost didn't make it but here it is at the end.  I was excited when I first started out but now I am finding this goal very challenging!

I don't think I'm going to make it through day 5?   I am such a crying mess!   I need to be sane again.   THIS FEELING IS AWFUL!   I really don't know how you all do it day after day? The...

Oh boy, I don't think I'm gonna go to bed anymore!   As soon as I get tucked in and lay my head to rest boom....my brain explodes into a million peices!   I am so very tired of crying myself to...

TOUCH ME         Touch me gently.   Touch my heart.  Call my name.   I am in the dark.          I have heard Your name,   and was told You would love me so.     Will You...

 I made it!  Day # 4 is now over!   Today was a very smooth day right up until now, but the past couple of nights have been horrible!    16 more days to go...!

 4:30 am       Last night was a long night for me.  I wasn't sure if I would make it or not.  I spent a long time fighting off the darkness that wanted to overwhelm me.  I just about gave...

Day 3 has been proven to be a positive day!   I am having many many many negative thoughts trying to knock me down but I am determined!

It's day # 2 and a half!   I'm almost at the end.....I think I'm gonna make it....5 more hours, what can go wrong in that short of a time?!   aaaahhhhhh......I feel hyper just writing this..!