4:30 am       Last night was a long night for me.  I wasn't sure if I would make it or not.  I spent a long time fighting off the darkness that wanted to overwhelm me.  I just about gave in but got myself pulled out just in the nic of time.   Oh boy, can't turn your eyes of this disease for one minute or it'll drag you to the depths of no return....yuk!!!    I'm off to work and have confidence today will be a good day.  xoxoxoxo  12 pm.    It is just after lunch time here and I was just checking my mail.  I don't feel well, I think I'm going to go lay down for a bit before going back out.