Tuesday, February 26, 2008

* I can't sleep so I need to write.   I feel I am in a battle field with the enemy.    I need to win!  Thoughts of suicide are consuming me.   The voices are raging for my soul.  I need to win! * In my distress I cried unto the Lord, and he heard me.   Deliver my soul, O Lord, from lying lips, and from a deceitful tongue.   What shall be given unto thee?   or what shall be done unto thee, thou false tongue?   Sharp arrows of the mighty, with coals of juniper.   Woe is me, that I sojourn in Me-sech, that I dwell in the tents of Kedar!    My soul hath long dwelt with him that hateth peace.    I am for peace:  but when I speak, they are for war I WILL lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.   My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.    He will not suffer thy foot to be moved:  he that keepeth thee will not slumber.    Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.   The Lord is thy keeper:  the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand.   The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.    The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil:  he shall preserve thy soul.   The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.                                                     Psalm 120 & 121   * I need to remember to reach out to Him and to be thankful for all things even this disease!* Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.   And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.   Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.   Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.                                                                                                   Philippians  4:6-9 Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;   Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;                                                           Ephesians  5:19-20  * I need to be content in every aspect of this illness.   I need to win this battle! * Not that I speak in respect of want; for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.    I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.   Notwithstanding ye have well done, that ye did communicate with my affliction.              Philippians 4:11 & 13-14 *  I need to remember to walk after the Spirit * And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.                                   Romans 8:27 Oh God, help me through this battle that rages in my mind and soul.  Give me peace.  Help me to remember to reach out to you in my times of trouble.  Give me strength to live with this disease without it controlling me.  Bless all my friends here on DS.        In Jesus name Amen