GunnaMakeIt

We are both still very with one another. I am angry for the being betrayed and unwillingness to discuss it. Her continuance of doing things that cause the triggers. She is atill angry with me for the...

Filled with alot of anger and resentment. I just typed up one nasty hateful letter to W CS ever!! I will delete it just my way of getting the thoughts out of my head. Noticed for the past two days...

I find myself nearing the end of this marriage. I feel I can only ask what more can I do to help? Sure I can see the mistakes I made and attempt to change but when I dont feel the willingness to...

I miss the friendship.I miss the touch.I miss the warmth.I miss the safety.I miss the laughter.I miss her.I missed because I dismissed!   

Am I crazy for what I am doing? The painful fact that I have tried to be open and honest about what I have discovered about myself seems unimportant to her. Empathy just a little would give me a...

"I feel nothing when we hug or even kiss. The feelings are just gone. You tell me you want to change but you never do!" Her words.An impromptu date night situation. Both kids are asked to spend the...

The struggle with self reflection. Seeing old issues in a new way. Finding oppourtunities to do better and do the right thing. The feeling of being alone while attempting to correct old ways and...

How do I change for the better? How do I change the person I have been? My marriage is nearing what appears to be the end. I can't forget the betrayl or let go of it. I am a fixer my daily job is a...

I continually read about the CS that are working to rebuild. I just wonder where my CS is? I feel that she blames me for everything that is wrong with us. I am unsure what to do next. I want to stay...

Just yesterday she my CS gave me a hug from behind (first time in many months maybe over a year) and said "I do love you and be patient with her". Does this mean she wants to stay married? I am...

I was reading a post the other day and some comments on the post and something struck a nerve in me. Codependant. After reading and reading I am more confused about this human state of addiction....

Not sure where to be begin. What a turn of events! It is strange because at this moment I am at peace. It may have been the hardest thing to hear and say but I appreciate your honesty about your...

We went out tonight to meet up with W/CS coworkers at a local bar. I have been feeling very distant for the past few weeks. No expression of any emotion outside of kissing when leaving the house. And...

As we go into another weekend I think about all we have to do to fix our home. I can push through yet another weekend knowing that yet another week has passed for you to work on yourself. What does...

Am I wasting my time I am sitting the parking lot of my head Dr. Is it worth it? If I married a serial cheater what is the use? She tells me she is working on herself and that is it! Yet she can seek...