Just yesterday she my CS gave me a hug from behind (first time in many months maybe over a year) and said "I do love you and be patient with her". Does this mean she wants to stay married? I am really not sure. My response was "OK I just want to be sure I am not wasting my time". The meaning to this is two fold. One I am repairing our home following some water damage and doing a lot of the work myself hopefully improving the home for our future together. Also the things I am doing for us are for us to be better as a family. I am still unsure what she is asking of me when she requests me to be patient. My deep down response is I have been patient. I didn't betray you the way you betrayed me. Might not be the best response but it would be honest. 
So far she has completely ignored my existence this afternoon. It has been nearly three months for any type of intimacy and I am struggling. I am in need for that release! The last time was in April and if I had to guess I would say it was mercy sex because it was our wedding anniversary. I am ever more unsure what I want? I know I want to work this out but just feel I can't trust her ever again with my heart. Crossroads quickly approaching. 
Lost and hurting today. She refuses to work