conversation with myself

Am I wasting my time I am sitting the parking lot of my head Dr. Is it worth it? If I married a serial cheater what is the use? She tells me she is working on herself and that is it! Yet she can seek advice from other guy. Divorced none the less because they just grew apart. So what kind of expert is he? Here I am waiting for the ball to drop. Kind of hopeful that the ball either fixes us or just crushes my feelings for you if you give up on us and our family. I am not perfect and no better than anyone else who is flawed. Well here I go to get my head shrunk!