bookdragon

After months of time ticking slowly by, the days seem to be racing. Still watching too much television. I am  in a pretty good place these days. I find that i am okay with my own company. My kids...

After a lousy August i am finding my emotional feet these last few days. I am working 1 day a week. My contractor has started working on all those jobs Larry could not get to. My panic attacks have...

I think i am going two steps back these days.I thought at seven months i would be doing better but this has been a hard month. This week is my birthday and next week would have been Larry's 64th. For...

I seem to have hit a wall with this grief, and am going downhill. Friends have been reaching out this week and I have put them off. Yesterday I spent the day watching tv all day except for some...

still having trouble sleeping. Still eating the wrong foods. still in a bit of a funk. I have picked up a few more shifts at the library in the coming week and then going on a bit of a road trip to...

Another night having trouble sleeping. Had a bit of a difficult day. I have had to find a new doctor as my old one moved practice. So today i met a new one. All the questions such as changes in your...

I have had my youngest grandson for the week as my daughter went to a 10 day band camp with her older 2. He has been such a joy. I think i will miss him when his dad picks him up tonight for the...

We came back yesterday afternoon from scattering your ashes. We were in a pretty meadow with the mountains all around us. We thought it would be sad but strangely it was not. You weren't there except...

i am doing a lot of contemplating these days as i think about going on a road trip tomorrow to scatter your ashes. It feels like we are saying one final goodbye. Megan phoned last night to say she...

I am feeling more positive today. Sat in front of the tv set all day yesterday and except for laundry i did not move, think, or feel. So i guess that is what i needed. Today when i woke up i was not...

it will be 5 months tomorrow since you left me. i have been so sad all day. Mason and Logan are spending the night with me. We went to the library and got some videos and now they are watching tv....

I have had a busy couple of days and have a quiet day today. i can see why people keep busy. it keeps them away from feelings of pain and sadness. I am going to clean the house. I feel very empty...

a few little bumps in the road and it turned into a pretty bad day. i was on the phone all morning which never makes me happy. A employee discount that Larry had is over next month as it will be six...

IToday is a going through the motions day. Went to the library, got gas, groceries, money etc, Sent an email to the fellow who is supposed to take care of yard maintenance because he hasn't come in...

Why do bankers use all this financial babble. I get so frustrated when all I want to do is keep everything as it is. It is like they have to justify all the fees they charge! I really miss having...