it will be 5 months tomorrow since you left me. i have been so sad all day. Mason and Logan are spending the night with me. We went to the library and got some videos and now they are watching tv. You loved watching those silly kid videos with them. I am sad that they won't have you in their lives, that i don't have you in my life. I hate this feeling of being alone all the time. I just miss our life together so much. The intimacy of someone knowing what you are thinking before you know it yourself. The way you made me laugh. I was always laughing now i am trying to stay afloat.