alanav21
Status: Lonely...I'm so lonely...I have nobody for my own...
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- I want to numb every feeling except love for my mom and daughter. I'm tired of sadness and pain, I'm tired of caring when no one cares about me. Happiness is obviously never going to happen. I don't want to feel love for anyone but my mom and child...
- If it's not one thing, it's another. Tomorrow will be one month since my dad passed. It's been the worst month of my life, and I struggle daily with doing what has to be done. Last night, my daughter's dad, who is my best friend even though we're...
- My mom and I picked up my dad's ashes today. I thought I'd be ok if my mom was able to hold it together. The woman at the funeral home was in the middle of talking to another family, so we had to wait for a while. Once she was done, she went to get...
- Hello all, I just joined this group last night. I know some of you from other groups, but for those who haven't read my stuff already, here's my story. I'll try not to make it too long. I lost my brother in August 2014. He was 40. Essentially, he...
- My dad passed away last night. I haven't gotten the details yet because I'm not ready. I've mentioned he had lung cancer, but from what my mom said, it sounds like it was something else, or a complication. So my daughter and I came up today to be...
- For those of you who are interested (I know many aren't), what are you doing on Super Bowl Sunday? Who do you want to win? I'm leaning toward the Broncos because it could be Peyton Manning's last game, and even though the Panthers are really good,...
- I'm still hurting from my issue yesterday, I'm not good at letting go, but I know I have to do it to save what's left of my sanity. So I've been pretty mopey today, overslept and was late to work, I really wish tomorrow were Saturday. On a bright...
- Ugh, you guys, I'm hurting pretty badly right now...this is going to come across like I'm a teenager, when things like this are normal, but I swear I'm 34.I started seeing this guy back in September. He was living half of the time nearby, and half...
- Does anyone else ever feel like no matter what you do, the odds are stacked against you? I keep wondering what I did wrong, if I attracted bad karma, if there's such a thing as a past life and I once was a horrible person. With deaths and illnesses...
- As I read posts on here, I realize that I'm just an idiot. So many of you have problems and are dealing with things that are so much more intense than what I face day to day. Most if not all of my problems are due to my own actions, so how can I...
- I've been away for a while, since September I think. I got sidetracked with the studying I was doing and a boy...plus life in general. I'm back because I need you all again. I found out right before thanksgiving that my dad has lung cancer. The boy...
- I need to become more active here. I've been lurking lately, I've been pretty busy with a lot of things but I have been reading posts and comment when I feel like I have something to offer (which is spotty at best). I think I can aid my own issues...
- I'm having a rough weekend. Not really sure what sparked it, I just feel down. Actually, that's not true, I'm pretty sure I know why I'm struggling. I'm completely overwhelmed. I have an endless to do list. My house has once again become a complete...
- A year ago today, my brother passed away. He was 40. He suffered from depression but never admitted it, never treated it, just drank heavily. The last time I saw him, mid-July, he was horribly jaundiced. He blamed it on his gall bladder and a...
- Mine is right in the pooper. I've hated my appearance for as long as I can remember. I read about body dismorphic disorder, but that makes it seem like we see flaws where there aren't any. I thought that might be my problem...but I know the flaws...