jaclyn1973
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- I've never been more unhappy or hurt in my entire life as I am now. Don't know what brought this on, but I've been crying all day. It's killing me.
- Went to DMV yesterday and had my DL changed back to my maiden name. Hurt so bad. Cried all the way home.
- Every time I think I've got a handle on all of this, I find myself struggling again. I still miss him. I still love him. I still...well everything.I feel like I've tried everything I can think of to put him out of my mind and heart. I've dated. I've...
- Depression is kicking my ass right now. And that's all I have to say about that.
- I know this is going to sound weird, but it's the absolute truth. I am pretty much deaf in one ear. Of course I have the tinnitus that goes along with nerve deafness. I have that in the ear that still works at least minimally. But the ear that is...
- Have any of you applied for disability? I've heard it's really hard to get approved. My hearing loss is profound. One ear is pretty much shot and the other has a loss of 95%. You'd think that would more than qualify me, but I dont know.Up until...
- I will be getting my annual holiday depression started early this year. I know it's still a ways off, but I emailed my sibs asking what plans if any they have for Thanksgiving and Christmas this year. I really wanted to spend some time with them. We...
- It's the little things. Filling out job applications. When I get to the years of him, marriage through the end...it hurts. With each entry from those years another nail is hammered in to my heart.When I changed doctors and had to fill out paperwork,...
- Missing him, but staying strong. Evenings and weekends are hard. Even after all this time I still get lonely and yearn for his kiss, his touch, his hug., his voice. And I know if I asked he would probably give #4 an excuse and come over for an hour...
- Several months back I tried to kill myself-twice. Didnt even come close which still kinda ticks me off. Rest assured, I am not suicidal anymore. Of course, I didnt go around discussing this with everyone. There were maybe a handful of people that I...
- As some of you know, I have quit my job and am looking for a new one..anywhere as long as it's not here. I love this town but dont think I can move forward living in the town where he and #4 also live. I do not plan to let him know when I move or...
- I've decided I can never fully heal and move forward as long as I live in the same town as him and #4. So, I quit my job awhile back and i'm going to interviews and planning to move where ever. He asked me today if I was really moving. WTH? I told...
- I miss: cuddling, holding hands, kissing, snuggling, huggingI miss having someone to talk to and do things with. I miss having someone to hold me. Someone to laugh with. Someone who really does "get me".I miss my best friend.
- I had a job interview scheduled for this afternoon. I just called and told them I had to go out of town for an emergency and could e reschedule for next week. She said she didnt know, to call her back next week. So probably that job is out. I'm...
- I had a job interview scheduled for this afternoon. I just called and told them I had to go out of town for an emergency and could e reschedule for next week. She said she didnt know, to call her back next week. So probably that job is out.I'm...