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- One casino I banned myself from, they took at picture of me holding up a sign that said, "BANNED, and it was right in the entry way. I laughed. I could have thought how humiliating, but instead I laughed thinking. HA HA, you don't get any more of...
- Subject line says it all.Last bet Feb 12th. A few night this week I have waken up to that music that comes from the machine. Where is this coming from?I still find it hard to sit still. I am so bored. Even going to the gym which is what I replaced...
- (I wanted to share what I got in counseling.)How to Break the Addiction Cycle and Prevent RelapseIt is helpful for people on a healing path to spend time learning these stages and then personalize them by identifying their own behavior that...
- What about a list of things that a person can buy when we don't throw our money at our addiction.Two days ago I bought a highchair from Amazon. My grand-daughter will have her own chair when she visits. It was just delivered. The feeling of not...
- I got up this morning and realized I had two more Casinos to ban myself from. They are a bit further and not somewhere I would normally go. I opened my check book and saw that there was money in the bank..... For one split second the ugly thought of...
- I try and I go a few weeks and even a few months, then I fail. I am happy to say that when I came home today and told my husband that once again I have failed he said, What shall WE DO? I said, "On Valentines day will you drive me to all the...
- What in the world? I had over 2 months GF. Paying off dept, feeling like this is going to all be okay. I have read so many people post that they can not causal gamble. Go in with $20 and leave. It is true for me too. Yesterday, I went and lost....
- A get together at my house, some people talking about how much they won at the casino. It was weird and I had to move the conversation away to another topic. It didn't make me want to go, it made me want to not even hear about it....
- All those adds for free money at the casino came in today. Ten of them. From other states too. They are in the trash, but I have to say I am thinking about them. I am so busy this week, I can not go. Whew. They must stay in the trash and I must...
- The hurt we have often plays apart in how we hear things, or how we defend ourselves. Throw an addiction on top of that..... things can get all messed up in communication. The "real" me is one of those people that generally doesn't care what people...
- Okay, so why did I buy a new pillow? Because I am rewarding myself! 14 day Gamble free and I am sleeping so much better. The last day I gambled I lost over a 1000 and gained it back, my gosh was that a sickening feeling and my head hurt so bad all...
- I can hardly believe that it was in February I came clean with my husband as to my addiction. I did really well not going to the casino till it was my birthday. Win a jackpot and the ball started rolling again. The lie, the sneaking and the dept,...
- Did anyone watch The Dr Phil Show yesterday? He had a women on the show that was addicted to gambling. There were times during the show that people laughed at her. Her pain was clear to see, or did I just see it knowing the feelings she was trying...
- I stopped gambling only to figure out how to do it again. This last time was two weeks GF and blow it. Win big, only to give it back. Isn't that the way it goes? Now I can't sleep again. (long sigh) One of my plans was to get back in a healthy...
- I have read that I will not be able to be a social gambler. I took that to heart and I stayed away. This month it was my bday, and I thought, just for fun I would visit the casino again. I have been good, giving all my money to my husband and paying...